The power in the Supernatural

I BELIEVE IN GOD!!

Now, I don't expect you too, if you don't want to; and I understand our differences if you are an atheist. Shoutout to my friend Atat Charles. I love you like a brother; and I respect you to my last blood, but the truth remains that I believe in God. I believe in His love, His Grace, His Mercy, His provision, His blood. I believe in Christ (Again, shout out to my non-Christian sisters and brothers- Rahmat, I see you); I believe in His Blood, The Crucifixion and all that it brings.

Sometime earlier this week, specifically on Monday, I was so drained emotionally that  I felt I needed a drink. My head was upturned; and I consciously took steps from a church I went to, to the ATM and then to New Buka. I knew I shouldn't, My head knew what was right, but my heart would not just take it. Then I had to call a few people who I knew could talk sense into me; and I can't be more glad that they did.

THE REASON for such feeling? Well, although I am an open book, I won't go so much into detail. I thought God was partial to me. Scenarios had occurred and I figured that God picked someone else over me. Have you ever felt like that before? Like God was just as mean and judgmental as anyone? That He loved you less than someone? That He preferred someone else to you? That He would pick someone, someone He preferred for certain reasons, (maybe cos he or she was smarter, needed more help, was His Servant, was more pious e.t.c) over you? Have you ever, like me, wondered whether there was a "X have I loved, Dami have I hated" like there was with Jacob and Esau?

For a couple of years, or let us say, about a year and a half; a few times, my world would just become chaotic, or just come crashing down in a few areas of my life. Things would just become unnecessarily difficult; or stuff would just refuse to take shape and move around in circles. Last Sunday was the breaking point. My car took a major toll again; somethings unforeseen happened, and one problem occurred one after the other. It was not the first time. I have once spent almost 40K on a car that seemingly had no problem 5 minutes before. Weird huh? For a while, I felt the reason for this was this particular person; but I am so logical, that anytime it came to my mind, I would just shove it off. How can my disagreement and "seeming" dislike for someone cause all this drama? Now this person was no saint. This person had hurt me time after time after time. He had said terrible stuff to me, acted weirdly towards me, made me feel like a fool a couple of times, I many times felt used around Him. So why would God be letting things go awry just because of Him? My logical mind would not agree

But on Sunday, 2 of my very good friends confirmed it; and showed me how everything I had ever done in connection to him; or times when occurrences happened between us, things would just take the downward slope. AND HONESTLY, THEY WERE NOT LYING COS I FELT IT TOO. SOMEWHERE INSIDE, I KNEW IT; but stubborn ol' logical Damiloju would not accept it until that Sunday.

Monday was terrible for me. How would God pick someone who had hurt me over me? Hadn't He seen all I had been through, and all I had sacrificed; how much money had sipped out of my pocket and how much pain had sipped into my soul, how I was angry, tired, bitter all because of what this person had made me go through? Yet He would still pick him over me? I felt bad...Bad is an understatement, Horrible is more like it.

But I knew why He did it. His Word had made it clear. It seemed unfair, unjust, not nice...He did not love him more than He loved me..He loved us both with an everlasting love. But His Word had set him apart- to be more greatly favoured and respected- and attached to it was punishment for those who did not.

But here are the lessons. Firstly, the fact that No matter who God favours above me; or how logical or illogical things seem to be; regardless of the happiness or unhappiness; or the confusion I get for sometimes choosing to be His Child, I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE HIM. I would rather weep and cry and suffer loss or confusion with Him than to act or believe that He is not there

Secondly and Most importantly, I have learnt through these occurrences that there is power in the supernatural. More power than we can see, feel, touch. The earth doesn't just rotate on its axis, or gravity just happens, someway, somehow, there is a spiritual, supernatural force that controls everything. If because of someone; my car, emotions, academics and general well-being had to suffer the way it did for about a year and half, then, there had to be someone behind the scene making it happen. Call me whatever you feel like calling me- but all these reminded me that even the lifting of a finger is directed and orchestrated by someone- Someone much greater, more powerful, Someone in control and everlasting, Someone who runs this whole show called Earth, Living and Existence, Someone called God. And like my Pastor says, I am learning to daily acknowledge the workings of God in everything I do; because THERE IS A POWER IN THE SUPERNATURAL

AYAFF SAID MY OWN O...

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